[Gemini-Phoenix]

I compare it very much to an addiction, and yes, it does sometimes feel like a compulsion in much the same way a drug addict or alcoholic feels compelled to consume more. Yet the more they consume, the more they want, and that's exactly how I feel - No matter how many CE's I buy, or how many versions of a game I buy, I always feel that I need to obtain more. I never feel satisfied...

I am openly admitting that I have a serious problem, but the strange thing is I don't want help. I don't treat this like an illness which I need to get better from. In fact, I am proud I am addicted, but I feel that it's something I would rather discuss publicly with others who may have the same problem in order to justify it to myself.

I wish there were some logical explanation as to why I do it. Is it for monetry gain somewhere down the line? Perhaps. Or is it for personal satisfaction of achieving something? Likely. Or is it something deeper than that?